Tuesday, February 06, 2007

I'm feeling a little down now. Another one of those ppl my age is flying off today. There is hardly anyone in church that is my age now. Only left with me edlyn and jolene. Lets not mention the guys cos they are all in army.

I really envy those that have gone overseas. Its like they are starting a new life altogether. I want to start a new life. I need a break from this one. Not that I am not happy here but I feel that I am aging way beyond my years. I feel very old for a 20 year old girl. People my age are looking for potential life partners ( maybe some are still playing), they are thinking of what cool stuff to do on weekends, which clubs to hit, which job to hop to next, which lecture to miss. Me? I have a potential life partner, I am too tired on weekends to go anywhere, my idea of fun is staying at home with my pets, and what lectures, I would be going night school soon. I have a permanent job and am now thinking about housing and marriage. I feel like an aunty. My idea of fun now is to be in bed with a good book, not that it is wrong, but sometimes I wish I could let loose and have fun and be "useless good for nothings" like people my age. I wish I could let loose and go out have drinks, party alittle and not worry about tomorrow. Sometimes I feel like I have a pencil up my arse....

If I had one wish, I would wish I could fly away from here n not give a damn about the people ard me. Leave behind everything and go bye bye...

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Posted by jasmine at 10:20 AM