Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Yes more mad ass photos

Posted by jasmine at 9:15 PM

Fudgie Boy vs Precious Bear

Me and my darling over the past 1 and a half years hahaha... (No today is not specail occassion, I just wanted to make something pretty...)

Posted by jasmine at 9:09 PM

BANGKOK 2006

The many Faces of me n my darling in BANGKOK....

Posted by jasmine at 9:03 PM

Me and the 5 ADULTS (psychos) at MACHE.. hahaha. yes .. they are all OLDER than me.. I CAN'T wait to turn 21...

Posted by jasmine at 8:57 PM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

*Jasmine is at home today (whats new)

My old work place called me back and asked me if I wanted to work for them for a month. I really hope the pay will increase. Honestly, I think I should be making more than $5 per hour.

Anyway, this is something werid. One of my old colleauges called to ask me to give this little girl english tuition. I was okay with it. I called the girl's mum and she told me the girl has a tuition teacher already. I was like erm ok... Than I asked my friend again. She said that although the little girl has a tutition teacher, she is not improving, so want me to replace the teacher. LIKE ERM......

Question of the day: How to tell a parent that the tuition teacher they are hiring is LOUSY?

If anyone knows the answer pls tell me k. I told my friend to talk to the parent and tell it to her HERSELF cos I am in in position to tell the parent that .

Posted by jasmine at 3:22 PM

Sunday, May 14, 2006

*Jasmine is blogging alot today.

I was reading through my entries for the pass years. So many memories. So many different emotions. From the point of me entering my second year in poly til graduation. From the point I ended my relationship with Victor to the point I started one with Rupen.

Its odd to read back and recalled such memories. It suddenly makes me feel a sudden sense of nostalgia. My mind is bombared with all these mix emotions, so of which I wanted to forget. I remember the day I told myself how much I wanted to start afresh, the day Nattie left singapore, the day I graduated. This is my dairy. My online dairy. No one would share the same feelings in this dairy as me, no one who see the world through my eyes. This online blog have archived each and every one of my emotions. My raw emotions and thoughts.

It may not be a private blog, but at least it can be like my little musem of thoughts. I hope to fill it up one day. I hope to record the day I start my first job here, my first pay, my first car (or the day I pass my BTT), my engagement/wedding, first house, first child........ and the list goes on...
I know that would only happen way down the road... But I hope that this habit of writing my emotions and thoughts would never change. Some days, these past entries, my little walk down memory lane is all that keeps me going ....

Posted by jasmine at 10:29 PM

Topic of the Day: HOUSING..

Yes, Its a typical PAP topic. Anyway I want to talk about housing today because I just attended a house warming.

Here's a question for you.. Would spend $400,000 on a 3 room condo with a mini pool or the same amount on a 5 room HDB flat?

I was shocked at the size of my aunty's condo today. It was so small. The living room is like half the size of mine. At first I thought my cousin's new house in Sengkang is extremely small. My cousins got married and got a 4 room flat in Sengkang. The living room was relatively small but the kitchen and rooms were huge. I thought their house was small compared to mine. But when I see my aunty's house.. WHAO! The size of her masterbedroom is exactly the size of mine!

I know its abit early for me to start thinking about housing but I think everyone should start some where. My mother says she has piority for the EC in tampines that is being building now, would be done by 2010... Haha, Maybe I can ask her to help me get one hahahaha*

Posted by jasmine at 6:13 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

Jasmine is bored. I spent the entire of today at home .

I watch Astro boy, Carebears, Smurfs, scooby doo haha and many many more .. It weird not having Rupen ard... No one to message me .. No one to ask me out.. SIGH* ..

I hope he is having fun diving.. Haha* I would assume he would be having alot of fun and forgot abt me liao.. :( ..

Anyway I am so bored.. bored to the bone.. i cant wait for tomolo at least i would have something to do .. sigh..

Its weird not having him ard...

Posted by jasmine at 8:51 PM

I am seriously annoyed with MDIS. Not the school on the whole but the staff. Seriuosly, you would free annoyed if you were me.

School starts in 1 week time and I still have not recieved the modular comfrimation form. Last tuseday, me and Kate tried to call her. We were in the campus canteen and we called and called but no one picked up. So I decied to go to the staff room. I asked the receptionist for her and the repectionist paged her. Her desk phone was ringing off the hook and she was just standing infront of it and not bothering. The receptionist had to go in and call her out. She came out looking blur. I asked her abou the form and she said (sounding totally defensive) "I sent it out last week."

Logically, if you send it last week by snail mail, shouldnt the recepitent recieve it in 2 working days? Hmmm .. I just recieved the email last night .. A bit late right? Anyway, if they havent send just tell me havent la.. dont come and give me some cock and bull story.

Posted by jasmine at 10:23 AM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Rupen has gone diving today. I was whining for a good few hours after he left. You know the normal worry and stuff. Then now I am too tired to think liao hahaha... so sleepy.. had a long day.. really long day..

Well, I hope he has fun. I know I will have a very long weekend..

Posted by jasmine at 10:06 PM

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Studying part time is so challenging. Not that the topics are tough, its more like the amount of discipline I have to sit down and do my project or study.

Yesterday was a long day. Nice long day. I had to pack my room. Rupen "liberated" me for all my rubbish. He just threw away everything litertally. At last someone is doing this for me . I dont have to heart to throw away all those junks, fragments of my past. Haha* He did that all for me yesterday. Then we went to concourse to get his diving suit. Later we went goldmile centre and food centre. It was the coolest place. it was like bangkok compressed. (my parents would never take me to such places) Anyway I had fun yesterday. I saw his hamsters and played with them and I went home. I got an invitation for an interview with Silkair as Air stewardess and an interview for Police officer, all on the same day. I have a PR paper that day too. Oh what joy, so naturally, I chose to attend the Silkair interview cos it would be at 1120.

For those who are reading this, I have a small prayer request:

Pls pray for me on the 9th of may. For the interview. That I would gain favor in the eyes of the interviewers and give me the courage to accept the outcome and be able to attend my exam later at 2pm, confident. I know how disappointed I would be if I cannot pass the interview so pray that I would be able to accept what ever comes with the peace and joy of God.
Thanks :D

Posted by jasmine at 9:43 AM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

I had enough already. I thought today I can spend studying but I end up getting upset over things that shouldn't have bothered me in the first place.

I had decided.. Screw silkair, whether I get the interview or not its ok.. Screw everythihg else.. I am tired enough.. Must things always reach the top before I blow? Am I keeping too much to myself? I am tired of this, of everything.. I have reached a point where I am asking myself is this what I want out of life.. I dont know what I want, I dont know who I want.. I dont know anything... I am so tired of searching and getting hurt, I am so frusrated of waiting and not having any outcome.. I want all these to end... I want my life to be normal.. To be like when I was in my poly days.. no stress about money, no stress about work, no stress about relationships...

I dont even think the word tired can be used.. its over used.. exhausted? Maybe.. but not strong enough to describe how I really feel...

I wish I can dettach myself and void myself of all emotions.. that way, I can concentrate and study for my exam without any problems...

Posted by jasmine at 3:02 PM

This week is moving by very fast. I thought today was still Wednesday. I'm living in my world and time seem to stand still. But when I step out of my world, everything seem to speed by.

I have 2 papers coming up. I am not really excited about it, but I want to get it over and done with. I am waiting for the Letter from Silkair to go for the interview but I have alot of what ifs. I heard the interview would fall on the day of my 2nd paper. (talk about be unlucky) My life is so boring, sitting and waiting for interviews. My friends are all working now. I dont know if I should give in to this and get any job. My mind keeps on harping on the Silkair letter for the interview. Which is better, to recieve the letter and find out that I cannot go or not get it at all?

I want to complain and complain and I am so frighten they wouldnt call me to go for an interview. I want a job, not just any job but one that I am willing to do.

Its my fault I screwed up my SQ interview, and I will live with that.

I hate this feeling. I feel so sian of looking for a job and not gettting anything. Can't I just get a job. I feel like dropping on my knees and begging for a job. Its like all my desperate prayers have gone unheard.....

Posted by jasmine at 1:11 PM

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Deer
Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda
You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

The Animal Personality Test

Posted by jasmine at 8:56 AM

Monday, May 01, 2006

I dont know what I want to post here. I just feel like posting something. I have so many things weighing me down. I dont even know if what I did was right.

I need somewhere to run to. An outlet.

Thanks Guys for hearing me out.. Sorry I couldn't come today. Thanks Damon and Kate for being so understanding..

I like what you said " Your fault la, who ask you so pretty." Lame but it cheered me up. Thanks for letting me know you saw a different side of me.

I think why people don't really know me until now is because of my defensive side. I dont want people to know about me. I dont like help because it tends to turn to sympathy. I dont need sympathy, I need support.