Saturday, May 31, 2008
Failed again.. oh well, thats life isnt it.
I had fun playing soccer yesterday... :)
Posted by jasmine at 9:31 AM
Monday, May 26, 2008
I'm in a state of depression. In a state of lost. I am leaving a bunch of kids who I love so much. I dont konw if I would pass my ppt. I have lost alot of sleep over it. I dont HOW !! God help me. Grant me the peace I need and the rest that I need.
Amen
Posted by jasmine at 7:27 AM
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Survived the following:
- Humanities Exam
- PPT
- Back stabbing stuns pulled by ppl are work
- Filing
- Screaming children and extreme heat
- Heart aches and pains
- Excitements
- Irrespondsible colleauges
- Public servant pledge taking day (boring)
- Taf club
- Yet again more annoying children
- Report book
- Exams and sorting out of results
- MSP and COCKpit (cocks-pits*)
Looking forward to:
- Diving at tioman
- Church camp
- June holidays
- PPT reults
and the BEST thing to happen to me .... - NIE
I really do need that break.
Posted by jasmine at 7:39 PM
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Sometimes I feel no one cares. No one understands me and I am all alone. (Now I sound like a kid)
When I am at my lowest people can only tell me its ok I will be there for you. When I feel like crap people will tel me dont feel that way because I care. To hell with that, I want a partical solution to my hurt and pain. I cannot continue living in denial or hiding my emotions. I have to come out of it. I dont konw how.
Maybe I'm just stressed. Maybe just balled down with work. Life sucks, I need to learn how to swallow it.
Happy mother's day
Posted by jasmine at 3:11 PM
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Its about 2 am now. I just got back from a movie.. Iron Man.. Its ok larz.. Has some entertainment value.
I had a rough day. Lets just say today was not my best day. But I think I handled it well. I realise something. Some people should be shot. I met an old "friend" today. (MCP) I know I shouldnt be bitching abt this. He is seriously an MCP. I was there but I was invisible. I was talking but he just looked pass me. Haha* Well I see people like that in my life time and if I see them often enough, they will know of my presence. Luckily I only saw him for a short 5 mins today. Any longer I would make my presence known to him. Honestly, I dont give two fucks if you are of high leadership position in office. When you are out of office you are just like any of us. NORMAL PEOPLE, CIVILIAN. I guess some people just dont get that. I pity his wife.
I met another one of those anal pencil in the arse people today. I got a little upset by I think its the way I react that made the difference. I told a good friend and colleauge of my today, I am not the sort who can wayang, if i dont like you I dont like you. I wouldn't be brutal or I wouldn't be extra nice, I would be just normal. And well I am glad I stuck to my principles today. Some times I think things happen for a reason. I dont konw the reason for the things happening today. One thing I took back was that if being a leader means behaving in that way, I rather forgo my promotions and pay increment.
What makes a leader? I dont know . I met 3 leaders today who I thought should have never been placed in that position. Maybe this system is based too much on meritocracy. Honestly some times I wonder how some people manage to become leaders. If being a leader means backstabbing, noses up in the air and wayanging around that being a leader is not worth it. I dont want to lead, I dont want to be identified as someone with potential to move up. I rather forgo my dreams and aspirations. The people down there are more fun, they are more real.
Posted by jasmine at 12:58 AM