Wednesday, November 30, 2005

F*cK. I was right . It has happen. Me and my big mouth. F*cK. For a little while* ah. U and your bUll shIt. what ever la .

Posted by jasmine at 9:01 PM

How many entries can I make a day? Good question. At this rate I think at least 5. Well while I am here I might as well post something.

Here is some of my all time favorite pictures:








Taken in dec last yr.. look how different he looks now... last yr still so fat.



Carolling '04


this will always be part of my memory




Exactly one yr later.. haha..

Posted by jasmine at 1:59 PM

Things you resort to when u are freaking bored

1.Whose picture is it that you keep in your wallet?- my bf..
2. What time do you usually go to bed?- erm abt 11 plus 12?
3. What was the last thing you did before filling this survey?- cutting and pasting it here
4. Who are the people you always meet the most?- pam, tyler, hafeez.. rupen, vicki
5. Who's the person you're gonna call if you need help?- erm.. pam
6. What's on your mind right now?- how to survive til lunch
7. Who's number on your speed dial- i dont use speed dials, important numbers are in my head
8. With whom do you wanna be to have fun?- erm anyone expect .............. hahaha
9. What movie do u wanna watch now?- CHICKEN LITTLE
10. When was the Last time you went out?- last night?
11. Who do you hate the most for now?- not hate.. too mild despise..
12. When was the first time you slept alone?- erm when i was in pri 5 or 6 .. when i didn't have a maid anymore
13. What do you wanna do for now?- go home and cuddle in bed..
14. What do you do everyday besides eat and sleep?- stone and shit .. like DUH
15. What could piss you off?- haha its more like WHO
16. are you an animal lover?-oh yes ...
17. Colors that make you happy?- PURPLE
18. Most fav thing in your room?- my care bear
19. What was the last thing you bought for your room?- erm can't remeber my room is too messy for any human to live in
20. Any instruments in your room? what is it?- ya a guitar.. should be still there .. unless the dust bunnies ate it up
21. Can you cook?- i THINK i can
22. Miss someone?- ya.. i miss everyone
23. Plan to buy something?- erm not really.. i already bought the bag tat I was lusting over
24. Are you satisfied with your life now?- ok la.. not perfect but will do
25. Do you like seafood?- i adore seafood... bring on the clams...
27. What do you usually eat for breakfast?- erm alot.. i love breakfast. its the best meal of the day
28. Did you eat breakfast today?- yes i eat everyday
29. Do you recycle?- ya.. tat explains y my room has so many unwanted things
30. Do you have a laptop?- yes.. no comp though
31. What's your favorite fast food?- KFC.. FRIED CHICKEN
34. City or country?- country
35. How do you prefer to spend your holiday?- honestly, any place away from my parents is good enough
36. Is kissing normal for your age?- ya .. kissing should be normal for any age
37. Are you athletic?- was
38. Do you swear?- yes..
39. Would you ditch your friends for a date?- lets see who the friend is first.. i can think of one i would definatly ditch
40. Do you have your own cell phone?- ya
41.what do you wear to bed?- boxers and baggy tops
42. Ever had a crush on a teacher?- actually yes.. but it went away after a while
44. Sugar or spice?- sugar
45. Can you use chopsticks?- i think i can.. rupen says i cant
46. Do you like to read for pleasure?- yes.. i am a book junkie
47. Do you care about getting good grades?- erm honestly.. NO..
48.Have u ever fallen asleep in class?- is tat a trcik question
49. Get a job or ask your parents for money?- get a job .. too proud to ask
50. Is your dad strict?- no my mother is stricter
51. Do your parents give you enough privacy?- last time no.. now they dont even know where i go
52. Do your parents trust you?- i should think so
54.Does your best friend get on your nerves?- no.. but i can think of one who does
55. Do you tell your mom everything?- erm.. no i dont want to be brought down to be tested for aids, then to some girls home
56. What's the first thing you do when you go into the bathroom?- hang my clothes on the hook?

Posted by jasmine at 10:07 AM

Some people have balls for brains. I shall not elaborate on that in fears that it might get too graphic. idiots*

Anyway, I had interesting day yesterday, apart from spending 9am til 3.50pm on msn. With so much time to try and look busy, I starting talking to people who I dont normally talk to. If anyone if interested to know how "interesting" my working life is here is the rough outline:

8.45am: Arrives with breakfast, turns on comp and go fill up my bottle
9.00am: Logs in and switches on MSN, Hotmail and my Outbox
9.05am: Starts blogging about my day before and some random thoughts
9.30am: Roughly starts talking to the first person on msn(this goes on until abt noon)
12.15pm: Recieves call on where to have lunch (back to msn)
1.00pm: LUNCH (only time of sanity)
2.00pm: Back to this hell hole(back to msn and what have u not)
5.00pm:Starts thinking about what to do when work ends
5.30pm: Tries hard to look busy, then leaves 5 mins later

So that more or less sums up my day at work. This is an APPEAL to anyone on MSN. PLS PRIVATE MESSAGE ME ! I NEED U TO KEEP ME SANE.

Yup and so it is, my day was "fully used" at work. Met some people at Orchard, then bought a bag I was lusting over for about a week, went pet safari. When home, found out my maple story was working again (over what joy) but ended up talking to my bf on the phone. Then bed time with carebear.

Ok, on a heavier note. I dont know why am I so affected. Am I being over possesive, over protective or what. Maybe it just me PMSing. Than again it no excuse. I am dreading this day, but I am sort of prepared. Its gonna get worst. I want to write more but I know my content is limited to how much I want people to question me later. I dont bare my soul here. I can't. I know the people who read my blog, contents here have to either be rated (G) or nothing at all, Vulgurities to the minimum and obscenity none. I want to pretend that I am ok and yet I want people to know. I want to act strong but there are just somethings that would always be there.

I am making a molehill into a moutain.
*don't bother asking me whats wrong. I'll say "dont know or nothing" cos chances are I will not say it to anyone. Cos its ridiculous and stupid.

Posted by jasmine at 8:16 AM

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Points system for MenIn the world of romance, one single rule applies:Make the woman happy. Do something she likes, and you get points. Dosomething she dislikes and points are subtracted. You don't get any pointsfor doing something she expects. Sorry, that's the way the game is played.

Here is a guide to the point system:

SIMPLE DUTIES
You make the bed (+1)
You make the bed, but forget the decorative pillow (0)
You throw the bedspread over rumpled sheets (-1)
You go out to buy her what she wants (+5)
In the rain (+8)
But return with Beer (-5)
You check out a suspicious noise at night (1)
You check out a suspicious noise, and it is nothing (0)
You check out a suspicious noise and it is something (+5)
You pummel it with an iron rod (+10)
It's her pet (-20)

SOCIAL ENGAGEMENTS
You stay by her side the entire party (0)
You stay by her side for a while, then leave to chat with a college buddy(-2)Named Tina (-10)
Tina is a dancer (-20)
Tina has silicon implants (-80)

HER BIRTHDAY
You take her out to dinner (+2)
You take her out to dinner and it's not a sports bar (+3)
Okay, it's a sports bar (-2)And it's all-you-can-eat night (-3)
It's a sports bar, it's all-you-can-eat night, and your face is painted thecolours of your favourite team (-10)

A NIGHT OUT
You take her to a movie (+1)
You take her to a movie she likes (+3)
You take her to a movie you hate (+6)
You take her to a movie you like (-2)
It's called 'Death Cop' (-3)
You lied and said it was a foreign film about orphans (-15)

YOUR PHYSIQUE
You develop a noticeable potbelly (-15)
You develop a noticeable potbelly and exercise to get rid of it(+10)
You develop a noticeable potbelly and resort to baggy jeans and baggyHawaiian shirts (-30)
You say, "It doesn't matter, you have one too" (-8000)

THE BIG QUESTION
She asks, "Do I look fat?" (-5)[Yes, you lose points no matter what]
You hesitate in responding (-10)
You reply, "Where?"(-35)A
ny other response (-20)

COMMUNICATION
When she wants to talk about a problem, you listen, displaying what lookslike a concerned _expression (0)
You listen, for over 30 minutes (+50)
Youlisten for more than 30 minutes without looking at the TV(+500)
She realises this is because you have fallen asleep (-4000)

Posted by jasmine at 1:00 PM

I love Christmas. Don't You?

I was at Orchard Road last night and suddenly I felt christmas all over me. The warm feeling in my tummy, the tingling sensation on my skin, the cool breeze in the air and the awe I feel as the stand by the street looking at all the pretty lights. Christmas is the "bestest" time of the year, don't you think? Last night as I took a cab home, I was stunned by the beauty of the shiny light streaming down the trees. I sat in the taxi just staring out of the window. The sky looked like it was raining lights. It was so beautiful, so calming to the soul. I love Christmas. I always do and always will. Its not because I am christian and stuff but its more of the warm feeling I get spending an evening with people I care for. My family, my friends and my toys. Christmas to me is more than just a time to spread the gospel and the love of God, its a time when the Love of God is felt so strong within the family as we hurry about with the preparations and the arrangments. Christmas is just the feeling of love I get from everywhere.

It strange but somehow I don't get that feeling at Chinese New Year. Its just another festival for me, another public holiday, another vesek day, hari raya or deepavali. No significance. As a chinese, shouldn't I be more hyped up about Chinese New year? Strangly, I feel Chinese New Year is a time to pretend, a time to act happy just for the sake of ang bao. At Chinese New Year I see unfamilar faces, everyone is an "Aunty" or "Uncle" to me, Mr Manners have to follow me everywhere. So tiring. What I wouldn't give for a quiet Chinese New Year in the comfort of my home. (My ancestors are hating me now)

I guess my parents are a bigger fan of Chirstmas than Chinese New year, they never force us to go visiting at CNY but then again MR MANNERS tugs my heart string and I have to go. But as for Christmas, I'll do it willingly.

Did I tell you how much I LOVE christmas. Josh told me the other day"Christmas is so romantic, its sad to be alone on Christmas." I do agree but not fully. Maybe because I am attached to a super wonderful guy(getting bored of hearing that?) but Christmas was never a lonely affair for me. Being with familiar faces is enough to make my heart melt on Christmas. Last year Christmas was a heart wrenching affair. Nattie left for Canada. Thank God Rupen was there for me. But never the less not having Nattie ard brought a whole new meaning to Christmas. Last year I learnt some lessons that would never be replaced.Lessons on moving on with life and the importance of treasured friends. This year Nattie wouldnt be around too but I still have Rupen, my family and all my fuzzy friends.

I love Christmas! Don't U?

Posted by jasmine at 8:51 AM

Monday, November 28, 2005

Having spend my last few weekends with children, I came to a revelation. As older people, we play a huge part in the life of a child, whether or not the child is your own. My ability to teach children and interact with them have raised many questions to whether or not I am ready or would ever be ready to be a parent. Ok so it seems very strange for me to be talking about parenthood at 19. But its something that came up in my sea of thoughts.

When I look at the young people now a days, it seems like they are always following someone or something. Like the rockers trend, the harry potter and the beyblade craze. Ok so those are just harmless trends and crazes but what if there was more? What if a child looks up to us and we unknowingly show them things they should not be knowing. As "grown ups", our lifestyle is very liberal. Some are into Sex, Drugs and Alcohol. Some are into gambling, prostitution. Ok so those are the extremes. We would never put a child in a room and allow him/her to watch porno right? But what if our actions shows the kid its ok to see porn, what if our actions tell the kid its right to smoke. And because the child respects us they follow.

It terrifies me. It really does, the kind of influence I may have over a young mind. It makes me sad and scared that I maybe the one to influence the child to be the next Micheal Faye, Anthony Ler or Sunny Ang. It scares me shitless.

I dont know if I should ever be allowed to be a parent taking into consideration my bad moral values, low self esteem and hard headed nature. Ok Lets not say parenthood, the thought of mentoring a child/youth is enough to make me cry. I will never be ready for that. The burden is too heavy for me to carry.

Posted by jasmine at 1:56 PM

It would be over in a week. Just 4 more days. At the rate I have ben complaining about my internship, it would seem very weird for me to say how much I am enjoying it. Looking back at the pass 2 months plus, I really have to say I have grown so accustomed to the early mornings, fixed lunch hours and the late nights.

One thing I would really miss about my whole intership would be the long bus rides through the CBD area in the morning. Seeing Singapore's skyline in all its splendor really makes me proud to be a Singapore. However, this whole patriotic feeling vanishes when I take the train home.(but thats another story)

I would miss the feeling of belonging to one of the largest firms in Singapore, the feeling of people gasping in awe when I tell them where I work. Ok so I like the attention. Big deal who doesn't?. Anyway, this place has became my comfort zone. I get a sense of security when I step into my office. Its familiar grounds, familar faces. I would miss this place.

The thought of going back to school petrifies me. I'm a person who looks for security. I like my comfort zone. It takes me a very long time to go back to my comfort zone. I am terrifed to think what kind of people I would have to put up with when school opens, the feeling of insecurity when I get thrown into a new class. Ok so I roughly know who my class mates are, but it does not make things any better cos I know there are people who I rather do without when school opens.

Well wat to do.. this is life isn't it.

Posted by jasmine at 8:56 AM

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Who is tat sexy boy?

Enjoy this one first.. more blackmail shots coming up

Posted by jasmine at 8:47 PM

Friday, November 25, 2005

I was "sick" yesterday. Went to see the doctor and was diagnose with Chronic Headache. blah* So I was given some anti depression/anti stress drugs with sleeping pills. Ya, so I have a sleeping problem but it does not always happen.

I took the "harmless" pills and guess what, I am in a daze up til now. The medication really helps me relax. I fell asleep on the bus yesterday and I almost miss the stop, I have been walking around like a zombie since 10 am yesterday. I thought by having enough sleep would do the trick, but no, today I am even more sleepy than I was yesterday. I wanted to go disturb the people at VBC but forget it. I'll do it tomorrow morning when I go down with my mummy.

Posted by jasmine at 8:08 AM

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Its really mentally trying to sit infront of a computer checking documents for 12 hours straight. I am so exhausted. Mentally and physically. Yes sitting down is very tiring. After 12 hours your brain just cannot take it any more. I really want to thank this few ppl who have helped when I was on the verge of breakdown.

Cindy- Thanks for laughing with me. And the short shopping trips before lunch.

Rupen- Darling thanks for calling me when I was about to cry. I was tearing when you called. And i think Davinder Singh must be wondering whats wrong with me cos he was looking at me when I was talking to you. Haha* Anyway when you were talking to me I can't help but think that what if in the near future I would be slogging away and you would be stuck at home with the kids. Ha.. You will be a model stay home dad! The conversation we had was quite funny just now cos for a momment a few of my colleauges thought I was married cos we were both refering to the children at VBC as "the kids" and i was asking things like "how are the kids?" haha*

Security Guard Uncle- I doubt you will see this but thanks for talking to me when I was on my smoke break. I really need confirmation that my day off tomorrow would be justifyable.

Justin- Seeing you work really motivates me to work harder. You seem to be in the office later than me every day ! It really tough being a lawyer. You're a serious motivation

Posted by jasmine at 8:19 PM

Sigh... I'm in a sappy mood.. i would love some guy to sing this to me.. haha.. (pls note men can't be hinted, u have to tell them things)

Ya so .. this is what i WANT .. :P flowers would be nice too.. what the occassion? you dont need an occassion to manja me :D .. i need some sayang and manja..

Backstreet Boys
What Makes You Different
(Makes You Beautiful)

You don't run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That set you apart Baby that why you capture my heart
I know sometimes you feel
Like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know
What you have within
When I look at you I see something rare
A rose can grow anywhere
And there is no one I know that can compare

What makes you different (makes you beautiful)
What's there inside you (shining still to you)
In your eyes I see
All the love I'll ever need
What makes you different makes you beautiful to me

You got something so real
You touch me so deep
See what's in your fade
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You got nothing to prove
You want me with all that you do
And I want to take this chance to say to you

What makes you different (makes you beautiful)
What's there inside you (shining still to you)
In your eyes I see
All the love I'll ever need
What makes you different makes you beautiful to me

You don't know how you touch my life
Always so many ways I just scared to try
You tought me what love is supposed to be
You saw the little things that make you beautiful to me

What makes you different (makes you beautiful)
What's there inside you (shining still to you)
In your eyes I see All the love I'll ever need
What makes you different makes you beautiful to me

Posted by jasmine at 2:59 PM

Like me new blog skins? I know I do.

Everyone is away at VBC now. Sulkz* my msn is suddenly so quiet.
I had too little sleep this week. So much work. Try working 12 hr days for 3 days straight. I will take MC tomorrow. As at today, I have never taken a single mc for work. 3 months and I have never taken a day off. My migrain is working up again.

Should I entitle myself to a day off? I got 3 resumes to send out. Some errands to run and a long over due shopping trip.

How shall I spend my last 7 working days of my internship?

Posted by jasmine at 11:09 AM

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

ok so its me complaining again. F.U.C.K. I am so tired. I have to rush out 900 doucments for thursday. sounds easy huh. Try doing it. I can't give u the details of my job. F.U.C.K. I want some one who understands. i go home i get shit. i get scolding for not doing my chores. I AM FUCKING TIRED. I spend my whole day doing shit. On top of that I have to worry about so many other shit. MONEY. My biggest worry. Now I have alot. But will I have it tomolo.

I want the whole fucking world to be happy. Even at the expense of my sanity or life. FUCK. I dont fucking care if anyone gets irritated with my complaining. I think I am entitled to do it. I had shit today. Not everyone had a smooth day. People have different way of expressing themselves. I write. I write out all my frustration. I'm still in office. Fucking late. Still here. WOuld be here. I am so pissed off that most of the ppl i know will be at VBC tomorrow onwards. I can't go. This is life. Ah yes I know. I think I should be entitled to be pissed with it once ina while. My smily face everyday is a mask. Something I wear to hide my stress and frsutration.

Why me? I want to scream at something, anything or anyone. Stay the fuck away from me now. I am pissed and insane. My emotions have already gotten the better of me. Sheer irritation and frustration. Migrain.

I dont fucking care if any clown out there have an interest in me. Seriously. You guys are just fucking wasting your time. I have more important things to fuck with. My future. So stop wasting your fucking time n mine.

Crude? Mean? Look at me do I FUCKING CARE? I am pissed. Irritated and tired. This whole world is a FUCKING CRUEL PLACE.

Not happy with what I write? SUE ME go ahead. Get pissed with me. I DON"T CARE.

Like i said earlier. Ppl have different ways of expressing themselves. For me I write.

Posted by jasmine at 8:18 PM

Monday, November 21, 2005

Posted by jasmine at 8:20 AM

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Posted by jasmine at 11:15 AM

There is nothing I enjoy more that a quiet walk down one fullerton alone. The sights and the sounds of the place brings back so many memories, some pain, some unforgettable. It was the place where me and friends ran down and played crazy games, the place where me and G.I.F.T sat on our night out together, the place where I went with ex for valentines day in 2004, the place where I went to when I need a breather, the place where me and nattie sat one day after rck climbing and talked about what lays ahead of us. It beautiful. This is the place that brings back so many things to me. I miss those days when me, tyler, pam, pei ming, jeremy and beng went there and sat at Embargo and had drinks. I miss the night when my friends blindfolded me and brought me to Indochine at Empress Place, I miss the time we ran in to FUllerton and made a fool of ourselves.

Life is unpredictable. Life is beautiful. None of us at that point would know that today Jermey would be in UK, PeiMing would be attached, Pam would be so busy with her life, Tyler would just vansih, Beng would be into lesbain girls and I would be who I am now. No one would.

When I look back, I am amazed. Amazed that during those days no consideration or thought was put into our future. We were then students. Mere 18 yr olds with a love for fun and fast money. I wouldnt say much have changed yet, but now we all dont know what lies ahead. Graduation,Army for Pei Ming and Beng, Work for Tyler and for Pam it would be further studies. But what about me? I dont know. I am scared and apprehensive. What lies ahead is a true mystery. It terrifies me ......

Posted by jasmine at 9:03 AM

Thursday, November 17, 2005

having nothing to do is a terrible feeling. my mind keeps running and running. my thoughts in a big mess. i'm tired, sleepy, in a daze. Happy, sad , angry , bored all at the same time. Its 2:11pm in the afternoon. there is only one thing that i want. BITCH*- i am a BITCH* a SLUT* an IDOIT*. FucK. Y do I want things I will never have. Expect things that would never happen. Hope for things that would never come. FUCK IT*

i a m c o n f u s e d . . . i n e e d y o u . . .

Posted by jasmine at 1:09 PM

Your Heart Is Purple (what color is your heart)

For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection.
If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength.

Your flirting style: Sincere

Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house

Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive

What you bring to relationships: Understanding

... ok i have no idea how to paste the HTML code here keep having errors.. but i manage to put the results.

Posted by jasmine at 11:22 AM

Your Heart Is Purple

src="" width="100" href="http://images.blogthings.com/whatcolorheartdoyouhavequiz/purple.gif"> For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection. If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength. Your flirting style: Sincere Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive What you bring to relationships: Understanding

Posted by jasmine at 11:16 AM

Its been raining all morning, which in any case a good thing. I have been in a daze since last night. I want to scream at something. I want to cry. I want to laugh but I can't. PMS, nah, long over. Depression, nah, I'm too thick headed for that shit. Nothing, no one, can make me feel better. This I am serious about. I know I am not alone but I feel beru lonely. I'm most vunerable now. I want something very badly. My whole body is aching for it. But I dont know when I will ever get it. I'm going crazy. My body is going crazy. I don't know whats wrong. SLUT* BITCH* WHORE* CHEAP* words I have been calling myself all morning. But that doesn't help. Nothing is....

I am going to hide myself in a corner and sulk.

Posted by jasmine at 9:22 AM

Friday, November 11, 2005

Conversation in the 2nd Largest Law Firm in Singapore

A: I really dont understand this Bill. Why is the Client charging for this?
B: I don't know. Hmmm* (pauses and think)
A: (Sighs)
B: AH! I know!
A:??
B: Check your E -MEALLL, you know that E-meal.. that one that one

Me:!!!! What is hell is E-MEAL? (sliently stares at the 2 ppl in shock)

sigh/=

Posted by jasmine at 2:54 PM

Post 5 random and weird facts about yourself, then at the end, list the names of 5 people whom you in turn infect.

FIVE WEIRD FACTS ABOUT ME:
1. I believe my toys talk to me. They REALLY do !
2. I always imagine of the worst case scenario
3. I dont like to eat rice
4. I still sleep with a stuff toy
5. I hate crowds. seriously!

hmm. who i'm gonna infect. :
1. Amanda (again)
2. Nattie
3. Kris
4. Rupen?( I doubt he willl bother)
5. Kok Liang

Posted by jasmine at 8:17 AM

Monday, November 07, 2005

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

Posted by jasmine at 4:04 PM

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Posted by jasmine at 5:57 PM

Friday, November 04, 2005

I'm in kinda a fix now. I have to decide what degree I wanna do by the end of this year. Why? Cos application for the degree course all start around that period for next years intake. After thinking so long at the large choices of course I have narrowed it down to this few.

1. Bachelor of Arts (Psychology and Humanities)(TMC)
2. Bachelor of Arts (Journalism)(TMC)
3. Bachelor of Arts (Behavioral Science)(TMC)
4. Degree in Acting (La Salles)
5. Degree in Speech and Drama (Julia Gabriel)
6. Degree in Management of Law (SIM)

I have seen most of the course break down and I am seriously considering the first 3. They can be all taken part time and they are all of subjects I am interested in. I have serious considerations for the Degree in Journalism. I have been hearing alot of things that TMC isn't that good. But then again I am not sure about that myself. I would love to take my degree in Acting, but the cost. The Speech and Drama course may not be recongise and the degree in management of law would be my very very last choice.

This is an appeal to all those who sees this post. Pls give me your two cents worth of advice. It would really mean alot to me when I am making this decision.

Posted by jasmine at 6:21 PM

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Ok so the skyline is "destoryed". After sulking and whining for 3 hours I decided to salvage the situtaion. So I am proud to present.............

THE NEW & IMPROVED

SKYLINE GT-R

This improved version, comes with a full fitted environmentally friendly ventilation system. Many people now a days go for convertables so as to be able to feel the wind in their hair. Users of the new SKYLINE GT-R will not only make heads turn but they would also be able to feel the wind in their faces. Not more death by carbon monoxide poisoing, no more poisonous gases being realised into the air. This stylish one of a kind Skyline will prove not only to be crowd pleaser but also the futrue of all "green" cars.

However this car is one of a kind. As it was created with much TLC, this car can only be going to one place. And if you have not guessed it, the proud owner of this SKYLINE GT-R would be Mr.Rupen Mannar. So if you are cruising down the street and you happen to spot a blue car with an "open concept" it is the new and improve SKYLINE GT-R

Posted by jasmine at 8:03 PM

I'm so fucking pissed now. The wind screen of the skyline car i was making for the past 2 weeks have shattered. My father broke it. I know it was an accident but I am super angry. Not at him but at myself. I am fucking pissed cos I can never get something right. I try so hard to make this car a perfect one. I went to buy the print, my whole hands are blue, the sand paper, try to fix up the decal and everything. I have never made a car before. And just like tat , it was broken by my dad. Ok so what, its just a toy. Its going to be given away anyway. But that is what making me to upset. The fact that it is going to be given away it has to be PERFECT. My family always say when I do things its alway "half pass six", in other works, incomplete or done badly. For 19 years of my life I have been hearing that and now, when I put so much effort into something it gets destoryed. It so FUCKING IRRITATING. FUCK !!! I am so hurt. Y? Seriously Y? Whenever I do something properly something has to go FUCKING WRONG?! WHY? Sometimes I wonder why I even bother to put effort into anything I do? Seriously. Maybe from now on I will adopt the cannot be bothered attitude to ppl as well as the things i do

Posted by jasmine at 4:41 PM

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

I'm very tired. I know this is the umpteen time I have saying this in my blog. I spent my sleeping hours last night cry, having nightmares and asking myself what I really want. What do I really want? This is what I am asking myself even at this point. I have came to the conculsion that everything that I am doing or have now, (my diploma, my lifestyle, my internship job, friends, family and relationship) is not what I want. Ok not to the extend that I will drop out of school, run away from home or even break off with my BF but more to the sense that I need something more. After my endless debt with myself, I came to my senses and realise I need to pray. And I found answers. But not the answers I was looking for. If I were to go on enjoying this life of mine I have to make some changes to the way it is. Namely, not being too easy going, be firm and determine. I can't always let people have their way and not voice out my discontent. Well at least that is what I have picked up over my Public Holiday break and my horribly long night, last night.

I have established one thing though, I am not a people's person. I am and I always will be. The only time I really enjoy is my quiet times in my room or one on one converstaions with my BF or my friends.

Bottom line of it all is that I need a change, I need air and I need to be firm on life.

Posted by jasmine at 11:34 AM