Sunday, February 27, 2005
changes.. 27/2/05.. big changes.... :)Posted by jasmine at 9:08 PM
it is finished.......
Posted by jasmine at 8:20 PM
cries-- alonescreams- but no one hears
help- where are you
alone- in the darkness
broken- too broken to be saved
fallen- once an angel but will never be a saint
cry- silently in the heart
bleeds- cos there is no way out
what should i do now?
what should i say?
i feel so alone
i feel so scared
can i ever trust again
can i ever be able to move on again
dear lord,
i am burdened
i have too much to handle
if you are willing take this cup from me
not mine but yours be done
let me fly again......
amen
Posted by jasmine at 2:43 PM
Monday, February 21, 2005
How else better than to express yourself through poems...Ever felt like the world was crashing down on you
Ever felt so helpless
You close your eyes and you see darkeness
Lost is all you're feeling
You're a lonely straggler
Stumbling in the darkness
With wishful eyes and tearstained cheeks
You walk down this lonely road
All around people are reaching out to help you
All around people show they care
But do you give a Fuck?
No not you.. No not today
You just want to be alone
You just want to cry
Why can't this fucking world leave you behind
And just let you die
You know you are alone
You know there is no way out
Why can't this fucking world leave you behind
And just let you die
The hollers of your past
The clouds of uncertainity is in your future
Everything around you is nothing
Everyone around you is not there
You are alone
You are scared
The fucking world has left you behind
To let you die......
Posted by jasmine at 8:52 PM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
PrInCeSs CLaSsiCs
Pocohantas
Little Mermaid
Mulan
Aladdin
Beauty and the Beast
Cinderella
another fairy tale come true..................
another fairy tale come true..................
Big time Bummers
Posted by jasmine at 7:18 PM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Its CNY.. although its the new year some things will never change.. for those who knows what i'm talking abt well, yes that problem is still not resolved.. my mummy is still the same.. sigh.. oh well.. i am now at my aunty's place .. i am feeling so tired.. y? cos i was not able to sleep much last night... woke up at 2 hrs intervals.. i am looking forward to tonight :) just can't waitPosted by jasmine at 1:31 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
I am feeling sick....I puked .. I am dizzy...
I think I am going to die....
The smell of the medication is making me sick
Posted by jasmine at 8:37 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
I thought today would be a super sad day. I woke up and tried to stand up. When I did, a sudden rush of pain shot through my right leg. Fuck, my leg is still sprained. I sat back down in bed and sulked. Ok I am not going to let my leg spoil my day. So I tried to stand up again... FUCK!! the pain it wouldn't go away. Where are the pain killers... Damn I finished them yesterday. Damn today is going to be one hell of a sad day. So I spent the whole morning sulking and complaining... At 2 I got ready for school. I left the house and went to hail a cab. Guess what I got a RED LONDON CAB... haha.. things are starting to look good. First it was a london cab, second it was in one of my favorite colours. The trip was rather uneventful. As the cab drew nearer to the school, I saw my class guys all standing at the drop off point. Damn this is so embarrasssing. I can't possibly hobble pass them and not look silly. However, before I could react, the cab was already at the drop off point. you have no idea how embarrassed I was. I sat there thinking of some way to avoid them. They started appoarching the cab. SHIT die die die. So embarrassing. To my surprise, 2 guys opened the door for me and one of them helped me out. The other 2 held the lift door open for me. Ok.. I don't like being treated like an invaild but if 5 boys are going all out to manja me what the heck. So I enjoyed the short moment of "stardom"They held the lift door open for me and walked me all the way to the library. Aww aren't they darlings. I met Pam in the library. I thought my exciting day would be just that. But who knows. Shannon was waiting for me at the library. He was nice enoguh to go all the way up to the 3rd to meet me and walk me to my next class. AWWww... you boys are such darlings... Thanks for "manja-ing" me.. all of a sudden i feel like a real princessPosted by jasmine at 2:06 PM
Ever tired waking up one morning and realising that you can't walk properly. Suddenly thing that you take for granted like climbing stairs and being able to go to the bathroom with out help becomes such a chore.
Every step that you take is sheer agony and every moment some one is looking at you with a pitiful look. Ok maybe they are just concerned but what the hell. It is so tiring waking up each morning and telling myself to be optimistic. So it only a sprain, it not like I broke my leg and would not be able to move again.But just not being able to do things which I normally take for granted it so depressing. On a normal school day I would go to school and after school I would either go out with my boyfriend or chill with my friends. But now.. It to school and straight home. Ok at least I still can go school. Well I shall quote my darling on this one " there is always a sliver lining in every cloud" .. lets see.. what is the sliver lining in this case? there are only a few possiblity
- God is telling me to stop going out so much
- God wants me to spend time with my family more
- I need to catch up more on my studies
- Its time for me to take a break from my activities
Well, I guess if I look at all the possible reason I guess I would say this injury is a blessing in disguise haha.. i get to be an offical bum.. sitting at home just rotting....