Tuesday, March 28, 2006

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Monday, March 27, 2006

Its been roughly about a month since school ended. Jasmine is still jobless. <- Whats new?

My regular day would start at 10 am. Kids central til 6 then bed time at 12am. Its been like this since God knows when. Strangely I have gotten used to it haha* I'm enjoying doing nothing.
This April is going to be a fun one for me. I got a bali trip coming up in April 21-23. BBT on the 24th of April. The immediate excitement would be Sentosa this sunday. I still wish I had a job.

I know I have been very picky with the job selection. It seems like sometimes when i get a call for a interview I get a bad feeling. I guess God really wants me to be patient. I really dont know how long can I be patient. I would love to get a job at places like Singapore Publishing, Media corp, drew and naiper .. I think u get the idea, I wouldnt settle for small places. I am so picky. I really hope I can find a job soon...

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

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Monday, March 20, 2006

In light of all the heat on the coming elections, there was no better a time for V for Vendetta to be airred. Set in the 2020s, this show talks about how an uprising agaisnt the autocratic goverment of Britian. The "hero" of the show based his entire movement on the 5/10/1605 gun powder plot by Guy Fawkes. To keep this entry short, I shall not say anything about the 5/10/1605 gun powder plot.( go read it up. its interesting.) This show got me thinking. (dont worry i am not going to mention anything anti goverment here)

Here in Singapore, we practice something called freedom of speech, or do we? This phrase I chanced upon got me thinking. Here is the phrase:

"The Press is a keyboard that the Goverment press."

Is this true?

With SM Lee aiding in the "conquering" of Potong Pasir and Hougang, would PAP still win? Should the opposition panic? Here is another quote..

"People should not be afraid of their goverment, Goverment should be afaird of their people"

maybe this is something Dr.Chee or up coming political leaders should say. Coming to think about it, the goverment should be afaird of the people. Look at it this way, there are like 3 million people here, the number of people in the parliament is not even close to 0.1% of the entire population. If there was some anti PAP uprising, can be imagine how serious it would be?

Anyway, the whole point is, one should never be too trusting about the things in the press when it comes to politics. Even the oppositions will paint a flowery picture of who they are, just that their picture wouldn't be too flowery because they don't hold the nation funds. SO back to the entire issue, as singaporeans we should not be too trusting about how good the goverment is or how promising the opposition looks. With elections coming everyone would paint an idealistic picture of how a perfect singapore should look like. Vote with cautionand don't just cast a vote because you think its safe or cast a blank, elections is like sales, no sales man would say their product is faulty.

Posted by jasmine at 10:03 PM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

I sensed failure in the force.. I failed the interview but its all in God's will. I know he has a better plan for me. I may not see it now but I know I would in the near future. God is good all the time.

Posted by jasmine at 8:34 PM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

The second interview is in a few days time. This sat to be exact. I hope I get the job, for the sake of my future.

I really hope it can be cleared and so would other interviews. But if God doesn't want me through I hope he will let me know early so that I would not have any more false hope. The results lie in the hands of God. I am not going to ask him to make it through the interview, but I would ask to get what I deserved.

Posted by jasmine at 11:37 PM

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Jasmine!

Only twelve people have ever set foot on Jasmine!
If your ear itches, this means that someone is talking about Jasmine.
Most bottles and jars contain at least twenty-five percent recycled Jasmine!
In the Spanish edition of Cluedo, Jasmine is the victim.
Jasmine has a bifurcated penis!
All gondolas in Venice must be painted black unless they belong to Jasmine!
According to the story, Pinocchio was made of Jasmine!
Cats use their Jasmine to test whether a space is large enough for them to fit through.
There are roughly 10,000 man-made objects the size of Jasmine orbiting the Earth.
Worldwide, Jasmine is the most important natural enemy of night-flying insects.

Posted by jasmine at 9:15 AM

Monday, March 06, 2006

sob*. sob*. sob*.. this is PMS.. not pre but post... argh!

Posted by jasmine at 7:46 PM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

I really feel sick. Not with what I have said earlier but more of with myself... I would never be able to live pass the fact that I have done something I have told myself never to do.. (this doesn't mean i have done anything morally wrong .. more of alongs the line of self values)

As people would know by now, I would readily make comments about the distasteful things people can do. But no matter how much I make those comments, I make sure I do it infront of those people. Which explain why I am exceptionally rude round certian people. People may not like it but I feel it beats bitching about ppl behind their back. Not like I have not done that before, but I try not to. I feel that if there is something I don't like about someone I should either tell it to their faces or just avoid them so save myself the energy of saying such things. Anyway that aside, cause honestly what done it done, I am still feeling sick.

I still feel sick about the fact that I know I have so many flaws but I dont want to look pass it. I know I am indecisive, I know I am stubborn, I know I can be very impatient, I know I tend to be to believing, but I dont want to look pass that. Call it the flaws of a hot headed young person if you must, but honestly such sick attitudes is getting me no where. Why do I not want to change such things, maybe its cause I have been like this for 20 fucking years. Maybe I don't see the need too. Maybe I am just too comfortable. I don't know, what ever it is.. Its not getting me anywhere. As much as I say I wanna change, I am afraid to take the step because I know I will fall back. Ha.. Another flaw, being negative..

I know its really stupid for me to say this but well, I have had enough rejections in life to be postitive. That is a down right stupid excuse to use, and it cannot always be the excuse I use in life. I always say that background is no excuse for people to behave weird. So what if you are from a fucked up family, I see no reason why you should be any different from anyone else. I should apply that to myself. So what if I had a fucked up rejected work/ life history, I shouldn't let that affect my attitude. As much as my parents think I am daring and a risk taker when it comes to looking for jobs, I am scared. On one hand I want to prove to them that I can get a top grade job, on the other hand I am afriad that if I fall they will look at me and tell my bro, "Don't ever be like your useless sis"(which I have heard more than once)

I feel so lonely. Some how I feel like I am the only one in this fix. I know people would come along and say don't worry I understand but to fuck with that. I dont care if you understand. I am here NOW. The problems, the fears, the reservations are NOW. Its real. I have no better word to describe myself now but Scared. Blame it on my limited vocabulary because seriously right now, the only word I can use to describe myself is SCARED, my insecurites and fears overwrite every other feeling. I hate to feel helpless. This is how I am feeling now. I hate to feel lonely, but I really dont know how to feel right now. I hate to cry, but I can't help it right now.. I really can't

I don't have anyone else to blame about my fucked up attiutide but myself. I have no outlet to let all this shit out but here. I can tell people, but people would get tired of hearing me blabber about my shit. Maybe by writing it all down people would be able to read with without telling me off before I start. I starting to behave like those losers I always laugh about. Going on and on about their stupid life like anyone would give 2 fucks. Seriously, if I go on like this it would make me no different from those sick pieces of shit. Would I allow myself to be like this? As much as I would like to say NO and say here and now that I would make a change to my life.. its starting to sound to cliche... everyone says that .. but who actually does it? Which drug addict actually says he will change his life and REALLY stays clean off drugs and not think about it. Which smoker actually says he quits and REALLY quits? Negative self working again.. Being negative is so tiring.. but being positive and failing is more depressing.. cos at least if I am negative and "thick skin" I can make my way though life and still be surprised once in a while. But if I am positive and all "lala" I should just be a bloody Kids central host or some silly singer in Hi5.

I know life isnt a bed of roses, I shall not pretend its one, but there has to be a way for me to not to pretend its one at the same time enjoy it. I hate growing older, it seems with every year, I get more shit. I wish there was a way. I really wish there was. I cant always pretend everything is lala neither can I hate everyone I meet. There has to be a solution, if not why are there still so many people still surviving out there?

Posted by jasmine at 10:29 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

You scored as Journalism. You are an aspiring journalist, and you should major in journalism! Like me, you are passionate about writing and expressing yourself, and you want the world to understand your beliefs through writing.

Journalism

92%

Sociology

75%

English

67%

Linguistics

67%

Theater

67%

Art

67%

Anthropology

67%

Philosophy

58%

Psychology

50%

Dance

50%

Biology

50%

Mathematics

50%

Chemistry

42%

Engineering

42%

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