Saturday, April 17, 2004

tO mY sPeCiAL fRieND...

You were there from the start. From the day I entered BMC til now its u who i c. Growing up with you have been a real joy. We learnt new things together. You were always the smarter one among the both of us. You scored top grades. I would say I am jealous of your ability to study but when I look at the times you were there for me its nothing. Like a pillar in the storm and a anchor to boat, you acted as a check in my life. You guided me to land in stormy weathers and most of all you reminded me about God. I know you would be leaving for Canada soon and I know i would hardly c you any more. But before you go i would like you to know who you have been to me. You have my light house in a storm and my pillar of support. You are the only one so far that has not left me. You are the only friend I have that have seen me in my worst and best times. Thank you . I will miss you Nattie.

Posted by jasmine at 8:28 PM

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

A tRibUte tO U....

I met you at my poly orientation. You said hi to me and i even remebered us having lunch together on the first day. We had chicken rice. (the yucky one from bus. park) You were the first one to say hi to me. You were like my first offical friend in poly. After that we were together though thick and thin. I am sure you would remeber Wnnye and even what happen when you and lili and some misunderstanding. What i admire about you is that you are never down. You always smile. You may not be the most attractive girl in school... definately not supermodel kind.. but to me, you beauty is far greater than that. You are able to smile in the mist of adversity and always willing to help others.... Indeed, you are the most beautiful girl around... Pamelia

I remembered seeing you on the bus. You got off the same stop as me and I was shocked. I was under the impression that no one stayed as near school as me. You were always the quiet one in class. The first few lessons I rarely heard your voice. I have to admit it now back then, i did have a crush on you. ( how ridiculous) haha.. You never fail to amaze me with all the knowledge you know and how streetwise you are. You are definately not man hunt material but I am sure women will give you a second look because of your confidence and the kind of ingenious jokes you can say.. You never fail to make me laugh.. Tyler

My first impression of you was that you are a very firece person. Yeah, you really scared me. But after geting to know u better your scary face is nothing. You are the most gentle person I know. You are stronglydevoted to your family no matter how many time you complian abt them...You beauty lies in the love you show to others... the unwaving trust that you put in people are amazing... I really admire you for your strenght to pick yourself up when ever you fall... When i look at you i don't c a girl that is all broken down by the world.. But a woman who is changed by the world and knows what she wants in life... Nooreen

I still remember I had to wait 2 hours for you once.. haha.. and your hair.. haha.. it never fails to amaze me at how u can come to school with this kind of hair... working with you for one of my projects was a big joy.. through you i learnt alot abt the law and how to go abt writing.. i really admire the fact that you and juggle 2 courses and yet still have never uttered a single word of complian... you can study on and on yet you don't complain abt the stress or the pressure.... that is something that i need to learn... Looking at you reminds me that no matter how much "shit" is being thrown at you.. relax .. take a deep breath and think of how to solve it instead of whine.... you are really a very good example.. Jeremy.

Posted by jasmine at 9:13 PM

Monday, April 12, 2004

Tips on how to stay calm.....

1) Carry a Piece of the Quiet

Concentrate on silence.
When it comes, dwell on what it sounds like.
Then strive to carry that quiet with you wherever you go.

2)Worry when the time comes

Most worries are future-based.
They revolve around things that,
in most cases, will never happen.
Concentrate on the present and the future will take care of itself.

Posted by jasmine at 8:25 PM

7 ways to chase away the your monday BLUES

1) When u open your eyes, don't say shit its monday... but thank god for monday because your are one day closer to the weekend

2) Walk to your window and look out. If it is facing a park admire the beautiful scenary.. If its is facing the highway.. Have a good laugh at all those losers who are up earlier than you

3) Look in the mirror and tell yourself you look good. Do this before you wash up.This way u will learn to accept the really you !! hahaa

4) Get a hot shower, this is ease your tensed muscles

5) Go to your cupboard and ask yourself what do you feel like wearing today. If you feel kinky, put something kinky on.. if you feel bored just throw on your t shirt and jeans.. But whatever you wear, tell yourself u look good... Never let people's comments put you down.

6) Think of one nice thing to say to the first person u see

7) Put on your best smile and leave your house humming a happy tune...

Your smile is infecious, it will rub off on others too...

HAVE A HAPPY MONDAY :)

Posted by jasmine at 9:39 AM

Sunday, April 11, 2004

its often in the wind of change that we find our direction..

Posted by jasmine at 8:46 PM

The complexity of the human mind is something that no one, until now, can comprehen. Why do people crave attention? Why do people want love? Why do people always want answers? Why do some ppl want certian things more than others?

Some say its due to the star signs, others, the human antomy. For me, i belive however we feel, its all in the mind. Its always mind over matter. There are 2 things that control our behavior. Our emotions and our mind. How u think would be how u reaction to certain circumstances. I do not say this just for the sake of it but because I have noticed this trend. Take this story as an example. There is this boy, he was brought up in a protected family. All his life he was given all the love. Then one day he was thrown into this curel world. He was rejected, condemed. If he decided that his life is miserable because ppl are treating him badly, he would most properly kill himself. If he thinks that at least i had a happy childhood, i am very very sure he would find the strenght to go on in his life. Well, you may say this is not how u will react. Okay, lets look at everyday examples. You have been failing this subject. Lets say, Maths. So tomorrow is your test. There are 2 reactions, either the "i-don't-care-becos-i-will-fail" attitude, or the "i-will-do-my-best" attitude. But no matter what attitude u have towards it I am sure the fear or failing would be there. Lets face it, as humans, as Singaporeans, we have been indocrinated with the belief that we can't lose. So, failing is never an option.

As a law student, I dare say that some of the cases I have read are very comical. I mean, why would someone want kill because of passion. I do admit that love is a powerful thing and yes, more than once i have fallen into that trap and have came out very wounded. But, its mind over matter. Is its sensible to tell yourself your life is over because that person don't love u any more? It is sensible to tell yourself that if that person doesnt want you no one can? Its sad to think that some people think that way. Its also veyr shocking to see what hatred can do to a sane man. If only people can learn to filter. Hate what the person did to u not the person himself/herself. By doing so you would not get angry easily because everyone is beautiful. Yes, i am sure in life people would wrong each other. But if u hate the sin but love the sinner would that be better. Would that make you more forgiving? Well, i guess as humans our emtions tend to get the better of us. But i always remind myself, mind over matter.

In life, there are so many beautiful things. All you have to do is look ard. The world is full of beauty.

Learn to accept yourself that is the only way your can be happy. You are the central player in your life. Never become a victim of circumstance. That is something all of us have to remind ourselves, inculding me. But in this process please do not become self centre. You are 2 hands for a reason. One for helping yourself, the other to help others.

Ask not what other can do for u but what you can do for others.

Posted by jasmine at 8:02 PM

Sunday, April 04, 2004

Its abt time i got on with Life.. I have been brooding over it too long.. God where are u i would cry.. i would ask God for strenght yet i turn back to my ways... i really need god but i refuse to give it to god.. today i have .. it feels good to look to god once more and realise that i had enough of my running around.. i know i have inflicted enough harm to myself.. i know i have hurt God alot.. God loves me and he wants me to love him back.. i need god more than anything now.. i just realise tat he is the only one tat can make me happy... i should not brood over the past anymore.. yes i know this is satan's trick to get me all upset and stuff.. he managed too for the past month at least.. but now he can't he really can't .. i know wat he wants .. he wants me to turn further from God.. he wants he to become self depressed and upset.. he wants me to destory the "temple of the holy spirit" .. god loves me and he wouldn't want tat.. he know this wa going to happen yet he gave me a choice to decide if i want it to happen.. i do look back and regret but there is no point.. accept and learn from it.. tats the only way.. yes God i know u want me back and i will climb this mountain again.. its not going to be easy but i will make it.. i will with your strenght and not my own... i know nothing is impossible with you god.. and i really want this to be over but its not my will but yours be done in my life.. cos u know wat is best for me.. grant me the strength to go on.. the courage to accept things.. the wisdom to do the right thing and the ability to tell wats right from wrong.. i have seen the world and it has left me broken.. God i come to u with a broken spirit and a contride heart..i need your touch once again.. for its onli through u tat i can climb this mountian.. i know satan will come and stop me but all i need now is your strength.. and through u all things are possible.. thank you .. amen