Saturday, August 26, 2006
Hi, This is Me doing my weekly blogging.I am still thinking about the entire lying thing still. I know its a werid way to start this post but its true. I am still thinking about it. I am not hystrical or super emo about it but I am wondering would it happen again. Its so werid cos I really dont want to spent the rest of my days dwelling on it. Forgiveness.. Have I forgiven? That is the question I am asking. But I am so scared that if I forget it would come back again, like the first time round. The first time I trusted and it came back. This round if I totally let go would it come back again. He can tell me he wouldnt la, but inside me I dont know. It bugs me at random times of the day. It makes me feel uncomfortable.
I spent my day baking cookies. The first batch was good but the rest were burnt. I feel like a failure. I really do. Yesterday and TOday. 2 days straight. Fail is every way. Oh well.
I dont know if I should blog this but I think I would. I hope none of the teachers in my school read this blog. The trainee teacher in my school is getting scary. I dont know if he likes me but he gives me tat impression. He will like keep messaging me, telling me good morning and good night and stuff like that. I dont entertain him cause I dont want people to talk. I try to be as normal as I can with him in school. When I was with Drama Queen last night he wouldnt stop messaging me and he called me straight after the event was over to ask how it was and that I should rest cos I am tired and stuff. It sounds like a friend being concern but at times he is overly concern. I dont know la. I am kinda not looking forward to seeing him on monday cos of all these. I hope Gay teacher would be around me most of the time than he wouldnt come and talk to me. He woke up late on friday and he asked me why I never wake him up. I asked him back Am I suppose to wake you? I dont have that kind of time... I hope the BBQ with wed he would leave me alone. I really hope he does. I think he knows I am attached. My friendster (he told me he took a peek at it) my table has Fudgie boy's photo and I am always talking about Fudgie boy. Maybe its just my imagination. Maybe that is how he is like when he makes new friends, clingy.....
I would have a long long lonely night tonight. I am kinda looking forward to it. Just my barcadi and work. I have church stuff and articles to write. I hope my parents are having fun.
Posted by jasmine at 4:46 PM
Monday, August 21, 2006
Numb. Is this the feeling I am having now? Too many thing with my screwed company. On MC now.I cannot control my emotions but I can control my response. I will control my response.
I have not wrote abt this yet cos I just dont know how to voice my dissappointment, yet I dont wanna be selfish (which I already have been) I feel writing will make me feel better but I think i cant do it here
Posted by jasmine at 3:58 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Good Sunday evening everyone.This is your friendly blogger Jasmine Lim here to annouce the lastest advancements in her life.
On the 20 of Aug 2006, which is today, Jasmine came down with some feverish like symptoms. She spent the entire day lying in bed in a 19 degree aircon room hoping to get better. The feverish feeling eventually went away when she took 2 panadol. Lets hope everything is better tomorrow.
Last night at Jasmine's house, one of her boy hammies ran away! He manage to climb out of his cozy tank. Early this morning, the runaway hammie appeared and went to Jasmine's Daddy.
Basically this sums up Jasmine's exciting Sunday evening :D
Over n Out
Posted by jasmine at 8:36 PM
Its a lazy sunday afternoon... I just got back from church.. My tummy feels funny. I think its the bbq prawns and satay at Bedok corner last night. I had dinner with my parents and my aunt there . We have sting ray, vegetables, prawns and satay.Anyway my bro was waching bey blade now. I really dont understand this cartoon. How do one give plastic tops directions on how to attack their opponent?
:P
Posted by jasmine at 10:59 AM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Ever had to much things to blog til you dont know where to start.Thats the problem I am having now :(
Posted by jasmine at 9:43 AM
Friday, August 11, 2006
Its over. Its all over :DEM was like Law papers all over again.
Advertising was fun :D
I sliped and fell today. My arm and butt is bruised. I slipped down a flight of stairs at Paya Ledar mrt. The best part is that when I fell, no one came to help me up! Singaporeans are so inconsiderate !!!! seriously !
ARGH*
Posted by jasmine at 4:45 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
I've not been having a super day so far. My day was just OK. I spend the day at sentosa yesterday and than today was spend working for games day. I am studying for my exams now. It seems like this round my papers are being a greater challenge for me. First it was some personal problems last weekend, then the mad rush for the national day prep for school and now I am sick. It is like a bulid up of shit and I feel constipated. Now "constipation" has lead me to "piles". In simple english, my emotional status has led to me falling ill. No one in particular has made me ill. Its just a bulid up of stress and unhappiness.I must say the past week has been nice, but I am still skeptical. I do agree with one of my friend's logic of once bitten twice shy but if it can happen once would it happen again. Unanswered questions. Victor said he prays that I will get the answers to my unanswered questions. Thanks.
My throat is killing me. I have been getting bunny eyes for the past few days. When I say bunny eyes I mean red eyes, the sticky sort. Its not nice. Uncomfortable.
I think I should rest soon. I complete about 4 chapters for my EM paper. 2 more to go. I am going to screw a few chapters.
Hey Jeremy Smith, enjoy your time in Malaysia with your Bike
Hey Kate, Damon, Grace, Ash, Marilyn and Jeevan... Study hard K :D
Love you all !
Posted by jasmine at 9:25 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
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The Muppet Personality Test
Posted by jasmine at 8:41 PM
Happy Birthday to 2 of my people in Lilipad land...The Froggy Princess sends her love...1) Kate
2) Victor
Esp for Kate: Happy XXth B'day. Better not disclose your age.. :P May all your wishes come true... Ps. what happen to our 1/2 hr study alerts.. FaiL hahaha*
Esp for Victor Happy 21st B'day. I doubt you will read my blog cos you don't have the add.. BWHAHAHAHa* I'll join you next yr
Here is sending out some love to a few people..
Grace sweet heart. thanks ..
Nazreen thanks for being so nice to me in TPS.. yes when the time is right butch teacher will kana from us ! bwhahaha*
Sufen: thanks for letting me bring O Gu home.. They are such darlings..
Froggy Prince: I see the evolving process. I really dont know what to say to you. I know you are doing your best. And I love you for that. Thanks for being such a gentleman this few days.
Posted by jasmine at 6:02 PM
I've been up for a good 1 and a half hour. And I have been chatting online, making breakfast( which was dry instant noodles), watching Shaolin SHow down.. I have to start studying.. Someone make me study ..PLS>>>>>>>>>
Where is my froggy :(
Posted by jasmine at 9:56 AM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
O Gus is in my house today. One O Gu is sick. He has brown puffy eyes and scaly feet. I hope the sick O gu dont die. I will be very sad if it did.I manage to accomplish 3 chapters for advertising today. I am going to the park to study again later.
I was talking to my Neighbour Kelvin today. He also shared the same sentiments as me.Life is quite weird if we dont go to work haha*
I am very tempted to try for airlines again next year but I some how feel that if I ever do get into the airlines my studies will go to waste. I want to do journalism not some person on a plane who say "Coffee or Tea Sir/Mdm" I want something with a challenge.
I am very discouraged by my assignment result. I really am. Now I have to put it behind me and study for my papers.
Thanks guys for your concern.
Posted by jasmine at 4:20 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
I'm home today. Its a refreshing change. I have to study for my papers. Its 11.ooam. I still have not started. I'm procastinating again. It feels weird not working. I miss my colleauges. (surprising!) I miss Nareen, Don Jade Seah, Whore Huda, Amutha Sexy Pants, Evelyn "pui-pui", O gu feng ee, HOD Lee Cher, Neighbour Kelvin, Su fen rabbit teacher and the once a hottie Balaji.. I miss making fun at the once hottie and sitting on his table, laughing at one of the teacher's accent, bitching with Naz and carrying my froggy n laughing at students.Haha* I hope O gu is ok today.. I mean my 5 O-gu not my colleauge. Haha* I hope the O gu teaceher will feed the O gus today.
Haha* I seem to have became so in love with work that during weekends I look forward to monday :P
Posted by jasmine at 10:03 AM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
i miss my froggy. I left my froggy prince on my office table today. I didnt bring him home. I hope I would be able to study. I had enough shit this past few days. I wish I could just drink and smoke my life away like everyone else in this hell hole. It would mean i can forget my problems, my exams and my family.Y cant I be that irrespondsible. Y can't I just be a bum and make myself happy at the expense of everyone else.
I am so stressed. As much as I dont want to admit it, I am so stressed. Exams, National Day is coming, my sickening personal life is not any better. Everything sucks. FUcK the world.. Fuck LIfe... I hate everyone, especially you who have made my life miserable.. Why do ppl go fucking ard with my emotions before my exams... seriously.. WHY.. Leave me alone... Go away.. shut up voices in my head... can you fucking shut up.... i want to stop fighting with myself....
This is the rants of a very stressed up person..
Posted by jasmine at 9:50 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
I have came to a revelation. I am starting to like the color green and I am starting to have this thing for frogs. Thanks to Nazreen's froggy from the drama room, I have developed this liking for that creature.Anyway, I had an interesting morning. I bought 5 terrapins. :D
As I am in a very random mood today, I shall speak/blog some random words:
I HATE mickey mouse. Have you seen anything as ugly as mickey mouse? Its a freak of nature. I mean which mouse wear gloves and go "Oh Boy!" Its a mutation. A bad mutation. And it has a song. My gosh, how lame is " M.I.C.K.E.Y M.O.U.S.E" Like kids need to know how to spell that name. It should be "M.I.C.K.E.Y nobody loves me"
I have never been a fan of freaky mutations are cartoon characters. I am ok with bugs bunny, donald duck or even daffy duck but I would not what to own any product with their faces on it. A rabbit should be a rabbit, a duck as a duck and a fish as a fish. You get what I mean.
On a heavier note, I find Singapreans are getting abit too much in this whole racial harmony thing. Yes yes, as races we all live together in harmony but why do people draw such a clear distinction? Is it wrong to see one chinese person hanging out in a group of malay people? Is it wrong to seen an Ang moh holding hands with a malay or indian girl?
I'm asking this cos I got it quite bad yesterday. To all you Chinese people out there( then again i think not many chinese people read myblog) , tell me honestly, is it really realy wrong or strange to see a chinese girl with an indian guy? If it isnt, why do I get those pitiful stares from chinese people?
I never thought I would say this but, I am quite disgraced to be a chinese person. Now with the 7th month thing going ard, it seem that chinese people are inconsiderate and selfish. To all you chinese freaks out there, pls burn your incense in the bin. Dont be annoying and litter the floor with food and what have you not. Not that I am being intolerant la but spare a thought for all the other races ard.
K on a lighter note, I'm off on Friday and I have 5 new terrapins.