Friday, April 29, 2005
oK. i have just read through all my posting and i have realsied i have been ranting and raving about how much i hate work. i shall save you all the torture and not go into that now.i just realised how much i was going to get paid.. its like super little la. and all day i go there and get shouted and scolded at. i hope i can get the cheque cleared soon. i need to go shopping. but with his little amount how to buy much !!! ok instead of complaining anymore abt my sad boring life and pay i shall list down my shopping list
1) wallet
2) bag (those squarish type)
3) watch4) something for my darling5) something for mummy
6
) something for daddy
7) maybe something for my sickening brother.8) nice lingere and bikini
9) get my belly pierced
10) $60 levis skirt 11)and maybe some stuff i realise i would need along the wayoh well, lets hope i have enough $$ after that . but don't we all make $$ to spend ?
Posted by jasmine at 8:58 AM
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Everything that was said during the movie was so true I'm this girl, frighten, scared and terrified of what would happen. Everything she said on screen was so very true. Her need for approval, her want for acceptence. The way people look.the way some people stare. But despite all that she didnt care. Y? COs she loves him.
2 people. So different. Nothing in common. One is sporty. The other can't play sports for nuts. Both from differ cultural backgrounds. North pole and south. Black vs white. Night vs day. Complete opposites. Opposites do attract rite? Ha* the irony. but what makes this all so special is because they complete each other. ok. opposite attracts? in this case yes.
darling. you know i'm super shy when it comes to mushy stuff. all i wanna say is i love u. sigh. how else can i put it . i can think of a million reasons why people would think we should not be together. but its others. to me you are my world. you complete me . you are like everything i would never be. i love u for that . i think i have told you this before. when i look at you, i see this really sweet nice boy that people tend to describe as fierce. despite of our disagreements sometimes, i still think the world of you. you know i still remember the time when i had a horrible dream and i dreamt that everyone left me. when i told u that you told me that you would never leave me. you have no idea how that statment really melted my heart and made me feel so much better. i do hope you really mean that. i know i would never leave you. y? cos in a world of 4 billion people i doubt i would be able to find another one of you. another one who can steal my heart away like that. another one could smile like you or another one who would know how to make me smile when i had such a horrid day. or another one who can pissed me off the way u do..oops. but seriously out of the 4 billion. there is onli one of you. that is y i love u. you are unique. you are special. and i am glad i found the missing piece to the puzzle of my life.
ok mushy momment over. i dont believe i typed those stuff.. haha.. sigh darling i love u.. *blush *blush
Posted by jasmine at 10:44 PM
Saturday, April 16, 2005
wats up u all... yeah.. the weekend is here... after a sucky week the weekend is here.. yes the ever great count down to he day i would quit my job... 10 more working days.. minus 2 offs... so i have 8 more days.. for those who are reading this and who are still studying.. pls dont be stupid and decide you want to work.. yes,work is fun and stuff... u earn your own dough . or in layman's term your own money... but fuck .. u do shit for money.. pls if i had a choice i rather not do that shit... haha...
i'm sitting infront of his apple comp now.. haha he is playing x box behind me.. his mummy is sleeping .. and i is so sleepy .. haha .. he is going off the aus soon.. good ridence.. or is it.. i would miss him really.. haha and yeah 10 days onli mah.. ya no doubt i would be having my worries and stuff but oh well.. whats life is there is not such feelings.. i have established the fact why i am so worried abt him.. cos .. HE MEANS ALOT TO ME .. haha.. oh well.. i would never like to admit things like that because i don't like to be too dependent on ppl..
i am so tempted to jump on the bed and sleep.. so sleepy now.. but its no nice.. since his mummy is home..
Posted by jasmine at 12:36 PM
Monday, April 11, 2005
Alright people, its time for my weekly bitching session.. yes life's a bitch... but as much as it is , i hate to complain about it... y? cos i believe everyone is going through shit* and i am no different... i am so tired of life.. at this point .. the only component abt life that is really wearing me down is WORK.. yes the ever sickening 4 lettered word.. plus today is a Monday and that equates to MONDAY BLUES... damn how i wish i was home asleep... well if its any consolation, i had an amazing weekend ....my weekend activties make me ponder about my direction in life .. yeah.. stuff like what i want out of life.. where do i go after i study... well.. no doubt i have thought abt all this shit before .. but its like the things that happened to me this weekend kinda drove in the point that life isn't all that fine and dandy ... its hard work to have a proper decent self proving life.. yes yes maybe i have been thinking alot about all this since i started work.. and oh by the way, did i say WORK SUCKS? ... well.. if there is anything that I have drawn out of my "valuable" life lessons this week is this:
1) I will never work in a office again,. lets just say i have this problem with sitting still for long hours in front of a box :P
2) You are no one without a proper cert
3) Being average/better looking isn;t a plus point.. it many be cos of your doom
4) Life isn't abt focusing about the negative... but the positive (yes i have to remind myself that)
5) Things aren't the way they really look
6) Family is very very important
and lastly,
no matter how much i deny the fact that I cannot stand kids and I can't teach for nuts,as a scary as it sounds,
i love kids (just as long as they are NOT my own) and i can teach them .. and i have a future in this line...
*thanks mummy for reminding me that.
and so the start of my long week has begun... i am half looking forward to this weekend.. and half not.. rupen darling is going to the "ass of the world".. AUSSIE.. and i would MISS him like shit and not to mention i would be worried shitless... but than again WTF he deserves this break , he has been working very very hard :D ... and the part of this weekend i am looking forward to is SUNDAY .. yes that ever exciting time of the week .. a day packed with my socialising activities.. a day filled with CHILDREN and nagging adults.. a day filled with Friends and large shopping bills.... but the BESTEST part of sunday is the very fact that ............. I IS NOT HAVING TO WORK !! (same applies to sat) ha.. the little joys in life... :D
Posted by jasmine at 9:13 AM
Monday, April 04, 2005
Given my current circumstance I would not say I am the happiest person a live..actually.. i are quite dreading life.. i is not doing what i like.. i is not enjoying what i am doing.. everything in my life sucks big time now.. things that i kept locked up in my closet are all coming back to eat me up.. as tired and strained as i have become i still forced myself to go on.. whats life with out alittle bit of challenge... have i told you how much i hate my current situation in life? .. well when i was younger people would tell me tat life is unfair.... to me tat was BULLSHIT.. right now.. life really is unfair.. just because u look good u are a bimbo.. i try my best.. maybe i am onli cut out to look good.. to be a real life bimbo.. i dont think i am clever .. i don't think i am smart... i am just another pretty face guys flaunt around to look good with.. am i not.. when have i said anything intelligent.. when have i ever done something right.. fuck it girl.. u are just another pretty face ... i want to give up trying to prove to myself tat i am good .. really i see no point
Posted by jasmine at 12:50 PM
Sunday, April 03, 2005
Turn LeftTurn Right
Fate plays cruel games on people.
It leaves people hanging on the line
With no space left to think ot breathe
With nothing but some broken dreams.
Fate may decide one day
To tear our lives apart
It may decide one day
That this is but a dream
With all but broken dreams and pain
With nothing but ourselves to blame
We walk this round alone
We walk this path of lonliness
Too slient , too cold, too far
Should life decide to be kind
One day we could be
Happy together
Being as joyful as can be
Yet no one knows what the future holds
I can only pray that it would be kind
Kind but not too cold
Cruel but not too harsh
For in this life I know
That many times its not fair
As alone and scared as I am
I wil not want to fall
Posted by jasmine at 7:58 PM