Monday, January 31, 2005
To my Darling:I know its not Valentine's Day yet. But I just wanted to tell you that I love you. No I did not do something wrong or said something wrong. I just want to say I love you. You have no idea how touched I was when you "helped" me home on thursday. You have no idea how happy I get when I get your message. Everyday I look forward to talking to you, every moment with you is truly treasured. I know there are time when I really irritated you and I also know there are times when I pissed you off. Sometimes I know I may not do the most intelligent things. Sometimes I feel very bad when you have to put up with my mood swings. ( sometimes i really cant help it ) ya... hmm... i know things may not always be smooth sailing for the both of us .. but i know no matter what happens we can help each other though together...
"Oh life is a glorious cycle of song
A medley of extemporanea
And love is a thing that can never go wrong"
Posted by jasmine at 6:32 PM
mIsErAbLe bUmMiE
sometimes i wonder which is worst.. to be handicap at birth or get injured and become a handicap when you are an adult... Even as I sit here and ponder about this question, I can't help but feel sorry for those who are handicap during their life time.
I just tore my ligament last thursday. It doesn't mean I would be handicap for life but I would not be able to move aroud properly for at least 2-4 weeks. After that I would still have to take care of my leg and wait for full recovery 3 months later.
Just 3 days in door and I have learnt that you should be grateful for our bodys. Ok, mine is just a minor injury but imagine what if it had been worst, what if I became paralyse for life (ok thats going over board). I would never be able to experience the feeling of wind in my hair or climbing to the top of a rock wall or even the feeling of water hitting against my skin. Every moment of my life would be pure agony. When I think about the countless possibilities of me now being able to do the things I really enjoy, I am suddenly filled with this overwheleming sense of grattitude. What am I grateful for? .. Simple.. I am grateful cos I only torn my ligament, grateful cos I have people around me who really care and are more than willing to help me, grateful for the fact that I am still fine. Yes i do agree I am one hell of the stubborn person. The more I am told not to do something I would. Although this accident happened during rock climbing, I will not stop climbing. Why? It would be more exciting and challenging if I am able to do it again. My whole body is dying to go for a jog or even a swim. Its such irony. When I am perfectly fine I find all excuse to not exercise.The moment I get handicap, I want to exercise.
Posted by jasmine at 6:08 PM
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
3rd day of my holidays... i'm wasting my life away..Monday: went town to fix my sickening HP... yes my sony ericsson sucks !!!... well, i spend some time shopping.. and shopping on a weekday is so shiok.. no one to push and shove you ard..however, i did not manage to get anything for CNY... i am so tired of CNY.. i don't see the need for all the fuss over it... oh well.. after that i went to watch shall we dance..
That show was really good... left me thinking alot and made me feel quite upset... suddenly its like everything that i wanted to forget all came back... the first play we did together.. the ballroom dancing scene and how everyone was lookin at us with envy.. a fairy tale went wrong... i was rather upset on monday night and i had no idea who to tell... talking to my bf abt it was out of the question.. totally out of the question...
Tuesday: I was awaken by a horrid nightmare... did not manage to sleep so i decided to go swimming.. spent 2 hours at the pool just soaking up the sun and enjoying the sound of the slience... later that night met the guys for shisha.. MX, Yilin, Hafeez, Akram, Anan , Aiysha and me... had so much fun.. the shisha was good... apple mint is good shit !! haha... the guys were so funny.. they did a really good job in cheering me up... although they did not know y i was so upset and emo they did a good job in making me laugh.. haha .. we chilled until about 1030 than we left.. it was only abt that time that i remebered i had BTT today.. haha... oh well... told rupen to call me up early on wed so can study for it haha... let just hope i can pass this round...
Posted by jasmine at 11:37 AM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
The sound of slience....I'm just sitting here.. Thinking abt you... Thinking abt life
One can gather alot in slience
One can hear alot in slience
The painful scream of your past
The laughter of uncertainty
The unpredicatbility of life
What more can one ask for..........
Posted by jasmine at 11:13 PM
Guys are weird creatures... Honestly... When they are around their friends all they talk about is not needed u... behaving like a macho piece of crap and well sometimes ill treating you... But when they are alone with you .. they get super mushy... super loving and manja you to the max.. when they want things from you or just want your company they get even more loving and start to manja you.... They only have one thing in mind.. and no its not sex.... its their pride.. their big ego and how to make it bigger... haha.. some times i just feel tat guys want girls are trophies... things they use to show off.. things they use to impress their friends with.. haha.. maybe i am right... judging from all the stories i hear from my guy friends and when they start boosting abt their "prizes" at the reservior... haha... and from personal experince.. haha i have concluded that men are weird... is and always will be.. but the thing is that no matter how we love to hate them... we (gals) just can't live without them...ladies before u start protesting think about this.. who is the one who you all bitch abt half the time ... who are the ones u all call arse but still go back for more of their crap.. who are the ones who make u laugh at the silliest thing... who are the ones who always make the simpliest things looks tough.. who are the ones who manja u all to the core.... sigh MEN .... love them. hate them, but still cant live without them
Posted by jasmine at 5:16 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
Flashes , all around her is flashes
Pain, all she hears is screaming
Fear, the look of confusion is in his eyes
So near yet so far
So perfect yet so wrong
She wants to help him
She tries to reach him
Yet she can't
He sees here hand...
He tries to touch it
He tries to touch heaven
Yet no matter how he tries
Heaven is always a stone's throw away
He wants to break free
She wants to run
He screams
He cries
She begs
She plead
Yet heaven is always a stone's throw away
He is fallen and broken
She is torn, too torn to be mended
Yet they look to each other for support
For heaven is always a stone's throw away
Posted by jasmine at 2:50 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Posted by jasmine at 11:27 AM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
joUrNey To ThE tIgEr cUp (not)
Posted by jasmine at 9:09 PM
Its the new year again.. Goodbye 2004 ... Hello 2005
Here is a list of things that was done for the "first time" in the new year
1st persons I wished happy new year
--> Nattie & Rupen
1st meal
---> Prata
1st thing i wore to sleep
---> mgn shirt and panda boxers
1st thing I said
---> Happy new year
1st kiss
---> haha tat i would not elaborate
1st message
---> from shannon
haha what other first are there..hmmm.. haha well like tat la.. Happy new year ppl