Tuesday, October 31, 2006

:D Its me.. I think its true, the blogs are just about me me me... Anyway I have a few things to thank God for.

1) My increment
2) JYC. Suddenly it seems like we are going to end before hand* ... Which is a good thing
3) The KL trip this week. 2 more days to go.It would really be a trip where I experience sleeping by myself in foreign land.

Well, I have my fear about this. No matter how much I say I love the idea of being alone I am scared. I have never been alone in a foregin country with such great respondsibility. I hope the JYC meeting runs well. I will take alot of photos back. Although I am only going for 2 days, it feels like I am going for eternity.. I will miss Fudgie boy!... :( haha I will miss my hammies too...

I am bringing my teddies with me. Winston, rupert, share bear and maybe hamster boy. Not too keen on taking him cos he is expensive bear. I already have in mind what I would be doing at the hotel. Soaking in the large bath tube all by myself until my skin wrinkle... HAHA*

Posted by jasmine at 10:08 AM

Monday, October 23, 2006

Its been a long long time since I blogged. (to me 10 days is a long time)

So much happened over the past 2 weeks. Somethings happen during the two weeks I would love to remember
eg. Zoo trip, Joon and Joyce wedding etc.

But there are some I would rather choose to forget. (I'm not going into specifics)

On a lighter note, I will have a new addition to my bear family soon. Before his arrival, I have already thought of a name for him... Rupert ( No it was not inspired by my Bf's name or the name of the bear in Family guy) I just think the name Rupert is soooo MACHO n SWEET. Its time my bears start sounding more manly... hahaha* Here are their names so far... (all of them bought by rupen)

1) Precious
2) Hamster boy
3) Share bear
4) Polite Panda
5) Perfect Panda
6) Winston (Latest)

I would like to wish all my friends Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Deepavali!

Here are some photos from the past 2 week.. (love the n73)

Our 2nd year together

Uncle Rupen. (No that is not our kid.. Its my niece, she cant get enough of him)

BS at the airport

Sasha the Big Big BABY

Someone forgot to eat medication...

See what I mean

Happy Deepavali

Our Crocs...

Church Anniversary...

Posted by jasmine at 3:57 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I use to think it was ugly. I really did. The plastic and the colour was just wrong. But now.. I cant get enough of it.. I want another pair!!!

I AM A CONVERT..

I LOVE MY CROCS

Crocs are the perfect things for attention seeking people like....... ME !!!!

*ps I bought a red pair.... I look like a HOT AND SEXY FIREWOMAN

Posted by jasmine at 9:45 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

I had busy weekend end. I am now at a point where I ask myself this question:" Is he my bf or my fiance?" DON'T FRET Jasmine is not getting married as yet.... Jasmine doesn't have a giant blink blink as an engagment ring yet.. It just somethings that have happened that made me wonder...

Anyway on a heavier note, I would like to write a short paragraph to some one very close to my heart. I dont I am not good with word so I decided to tell you this in writing.. (or blogging in this case)

Darling,
I dont want to say anything remotely cheesy or stupid now.. But all I can think of is " I know how you feel"... Trust me I do... I have been through this twice in my life.. I know right now you are just a mix of emotions, I was too when it happened.. I regreted, I got angry, I cried and I yelled. Suddenly, everything that happened today was like something that happened to me last year, the only difference was that I am watching it and not in it. The emotions are very raw. And I know right now part of you is hurting but in months or even years to come you will heal. Time do heal all wounds. Time will take the pain away and in time you will understand what has happened. God has a reason for things happening and right now is no better example. I learnt something through those experiences. Things like this happen not to break you but to build you up. In time you will see that you have become stronger person. In time to come, what you went through may happen to someone around you and you will know how to give the person all the comfort and strength that he/she need. Darling, I pray that God will be by youf everyday. God will strengthen you and God will watch over you. I pray that your family will be given the strength they need to go through everything. I pray that God will send people who would help you family in this time . Most of all I pray that God will bless you. Darling, I love you and no matter what I would always be there for you.

Love
Jas

Posted by jasmine at 9:53 PM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Today is one of those mornings that I just do not want to wake up. I had a long conversation last night and it left me thinking really hard. To be honest, I didn't sleep much last night cos I spent it thinking, maybe not just thinking but reevaluation myself.

In this 20 years of my pathetic life, I have set goals and aims for myself. And it is only in my recent years that I put alot of emphasis in achieving goals. Sometimes I think I take it too hard on myself when I dont. I have reached the lowest point today.

Suddenly, I just feel that everything I do is a mere waste of time. My studies, my life and most of all my relationships with people. I put in so much effort into getting things done and then someone comes along and put me down. It already happened twice or may more when it comes to my studies. Sometimes I think why am I putting in so much effort to study. After all its a private school, and i quote damon "Can pass I very happy liao". Some how I feel so tempted to do that but by doing it am I doing justice to my parents? Am I doing justice to th 3k plus that my mum gave me to study. I know its my life and they shouldn't dictate my actions but as a daughter the least I can do is to make them proud of me.

I feel like yelling "FUCK IT ALL OF YOU" very very loud. I feel like being like every other 20 year old I know, clubbing and smoking and wasting their life away still thinking what they should be doing and later deciding to do nothing cos "I AM STILL YOUNG". I am not sterotyping but I know alot of people my age who behaves this way. Then again I know some people who are slightly older who don't know what to do with their life.

Now the "if only" sets in. If only I had gone JC, now I would be in NUS or NTU. If only I decided not to start working, if only I choose to go overseas to study... IF ONLY...

There would be a hundred and one "if onlys" if I want to go on. Life is as it is right now. There is no "if only" there is only now.

I am glad to be at work, sometimes I look at work as my escape. A place with people who I can get along with are and a place for me to let loose and be myself. I thank God for everyone at Tampines Pri. I really dont know what to do if I had ended up in another school.

oh btw...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY

------ verbal diarroea 04102006-----

Posted by jasmine at 8:24 AM