Monday, May 30, 2005
there have been something seriously wrong with me.. seriously, who sleeps every night and wake up at like 2-3 hours intervals...i have been going through my whole "depression" thingy again.. you know the kind of shitty mind games that tell you
"nobody love me , everybody hates me, i should go and eat some worms"everything seem to matter to me now .. i blow up at the slightest thing... y? wats wrong with me? its not PMS , i'm sure of that .. i am so edgy that i am sure i can commit murder .. or should i say cupible homicide... on grave and sudden provocation.. s300(c) of the penal code.. FUCK! what the hell is wrong with me..
my weekend was like an emotional rollercoaster ride... lost my temper at my darling.. cried until my house flooded for no apparent reason.. went for a b'day party and felt super upset and lefted out.. hate the sight of ppl.. one of my friends advised my to see a skrink abt my problem.. had some alcohol and ciggys..kiss and made up with him .. so everything should bo ok liao right? went to complete my level one rock climbing than had to rush down for some thanksgiving service..and dinner with a grp of friends..went home and tried to sleep.. guess what.. i slept at 11 plus and woke up at 3 am !! and guess what ! i have been up since.. tossing and turning in bed.. now its 845am.. ha... 5hr 45 mins .. 5 long fucking hours.. lying in bed .. drifting in and out of sleep... again.. this is happening far too often.. it has been like that for more than one week... or should i say this is the 3rd time this is happening this year.. this phrase can last of months .. if lucky 2-3 weeks...
FUCK whats wrong with me...
Posted by jasmine at 7:27 AM