Tuesday, July 27, 2004
CHOCOLATE ROX !!!
got home liao haha.. wat s super long day... so many things have happened .. spent the morning in sch .. had accounts lesson but 1/2 the time i was smsing someone at the same time comforting another friend who lost her friend to brain tumor.. life is so damn unpredictable .. sigh oh well..
i was talking abt relationships and marriage with someone today and well.. yeah.. its like at my age everyone is getting in bgr.. at his age everyone is getting married.. sigh... its sad that i don't have anyone.. u know i always pictured a perfect date... a nice dinner.. a walk on the beach... hand in hand than sitting there watching the stars.. haha... always run though tat scene in my mind... but u know wat i forgotten.. WHO i am going to spend it with... than again.. its like WHO WOULD SPEND IT WITH ME.. haha.. oh well... i'm still young... or at least that wat i'll continue thinking.. haha... forever young... well..anyway, the person i was having the conversation with brought up this point " I'm sure you will find the right guy. Maybe you've already found him but you just not sure"..... sigh .. maybe.. oh well.. all i know is that GOD will find the right guy for me at the right time...
I also just realise something.. i'm a chinese in denial.... haha... y? simple.. i can't speak my mother tonuge for nuts.. even if i did i sound like some ang moh speaking chinese... i absolutly hate traditional chinese food.. like those salted fish and fatty pork etc.. i don't even know when the festivals are...i have never wore a chinese traditional costume b4.. i wore before saris and kebayas but never a traditonal chinese dress ot wat ever u call tat... i can't use chosticks with out messing up the place... i can't cook chines food..i have no culture... no heritage... and worst of all.. I DON'T LOOK chinese... i get ppl coming up to me and asking am i mixed blood or better still... start talking to me in malay... sigh... oh well...
haha... what to do.. i'm a CHINESE IN DENIAL.. :P
Posted by jasmine at 9:22 PM