Sunday, April 04, 2004
Its abt time i got on with Life.. I have been brooding over it too long.. God where are u i would cry.. i would ask God for strenght yet i turn back to my ways... i really need god but i refuse to give it to god.. today i have .. it feels good to look to god once more and realise that i had enough of my running around.. i know i have inflicted enough harm to myself.. i know i have hurt God alot.. God loves me and he wants me to love him back.. i need god more than anything now.. i just realise tat he is the only one tat can make me happy... i should not brood over the past anymore.. yes i know this is satan's trick to get me all upset and stuff.. he managed too for the past month at least.. but now he can't he really can't .. i know wat he wants .. he wants me to turn further from God.. he wants he to become self depressed and upset.. he wants me to destory the "temple of the holy spirit" .. god loves me and he wouldn't want tat.. he know this wa going to happen yet he gave me a choice to decide if i want it to happen.. i do look back and regret but there is no point.. accept and learn from it.. tats the only way.. yes God i know u want me back and i will climb this mountain again.. its not going to be easy but i will make it.. i will with your strenght and not my own... i know nothing is impossible with you god.. and i really want this to be over but its not my will but yours be done in my life.. cos u know wat is best for me.. grant me the strength to go on.. the courage to accept things.. the wisdom to do the right thing and the ability to tell wats right from wrong.. i have seen the world and it has left me broken.. God i come to u with a broken spirit and a contride heart..i need your touch once again.. for its onli through u tat i can climb this mountian.. i know satan will come and stop me but all i need now is your strength.. and through u all things are possible.. thank you .. amen
Posted by jasmine at 4:24 PM